it's really a matter of convenience. i tend to fall for the people closest to me because it's harder to go out and make that connection with someone new.

oh? you sleep in the bedroom next to mine? why don't you just sleep in my bed and that will be easier? yes? ok. good. now let's have amazing mindblowing sex with no commitment, but really, i'm getting attached the whole time and you break my heart when you leave or move on.

am i inventing drama. you bet. i love it a little. but i'm going to move. and keep my shit together. i'm not going to flirt. or prance around the apartment in little, tiny outfits that make you look twice. i'm not going to cook for you, or shave my legs for you, or stay at home and hope you come home to see me asleep all cute on the couch.

i am not going to do any of these things. because i am a grownup. and i am perfectly capable of finding love outside of my house. i promise.